I have had a fairly new experience over the past two weeks and it's not one I like.
My girlfriend has been in Turkey with her mom this past two weeks and I have had an increasing ache inside me because I miss her so much.
It's been fairly odd really, the holiday had been planned and talked about for months, so it's not like I didn't know she was going away, but when she actually went it seemed too sudden. It was kind of like the opposite of Christmas. You know when straight after the day someone says it'll be here again before you know it, then it is, but who doesn't like Christmas?
So there I am standing there hugging my girlfriend on payday (which for me is usually a great day) and she's handing me her keys and she's off. It just came out of nowhere. I kind of made it hard on myself because I hadn't really thought about it too much. I got a text of her mum to say they'd got there safe and they'd had a good day so that was a reliefe because you know, you always worry.
The next day wasn't so bad either but then I got a message to say she'd be giving me a call later in that day. I was a bit excited, it'd only been about 36 hours but I did really want to hear her voice. It was only a four minute conversation, she was using a phone box to save the riduculous network charges for using your phone abroad. She told me she was having a good time and that the weather was great. The usual conversation you have when you're away, what time is it over there, that sort of thing. As her time was running out, I told her to have a great time and that I'd see her when she got back. I won't lie, 36 hours in, I was holding back tears.
I have only had communication with her twice since then and I think that has had a part in the all over ache I've been experiencing. I'm not complaining, I did tell her not to bother putting herself out to get in touch with me. I wish I had though.
I have never missed anyone or anything as much as I've missed her the past two weeks. I must say though I've been very good in keeping it in unless someone asked me and then it's just came spilling out. It's like I'm learning a new life experience. I never knew I could actually feel this way. I didn't know that this feeling of being lost was possible. It's a different kind of realisation as to just how big a part of my life she is. You would think that would be obivous, but you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
So that's it, I just wanted to express how much I've felt lost and like I've been aching everyday since you went on holiday. This one's for you baby, I love you.
My girlfriend has been in Turkey with her mom this past two weeks and I have had an increasing ache inside me because I miss her so much.
It's been fairly odd really, the holiday had been planned and talked about for months, so it's not like I didn't know she was going away, but when she actually went it seemed too sudden. It was kind of like the opposite of Christmas. You know when straight after the day someone says it'll be here again before you know it, then it is, but who doesn't like Christmas?
So there I am standing there hugging my girlfriend on payday (which for me is usually a great day) and she's handing me her keys and she's off. It just came out of nowhere. I kind of made it hard on myself because I hadn't really thought about it too much. I got a text of her mum to say they'd got there safe and they'd had a good day so that was a reliefe because you know, you always worry.
The next day wasn't so bad either but then I got a message to say she'd be giving me a call later in that day. I was a bit excited, it'd only been about 36 hours but I did really want to hear her voice. It was only a four minute conversation, she was using a phone box to save the riduculous network charges for using your phone abroad. She told me she was having a good time and that the weather was great. The usual conversation you have when you're away, what time is it over there, that sort of thing. As her time was running out, I told her to have a great time and that I'd see her when she got back. I won't lie, 36 hours in, I was holding back tears.
I have only had communication with her twice since then and I think that has had a part in the all over ache I've been experiencing. I'm not complaining, I did tell her not to bother putting herself out to get in touch with me. I wish I had though.
I have never missed anyone or anything as much as I've missed her the past two weeks. I must say though I've been very good in keeping it in unless someone asked me and then it's just came spilling out. It's like I'm learning a new life experience. I never knew I could actually feel this way. I didn't know that this feeling of being lost was possible. It's a different kind of realisation as to just how big a part of my life she is. You would think that would be obivous, but you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
So that's it, I just wanted to express how much I've felt lost and like I've been aching everyday since you went on holiday. This one's for you baby, I love you.
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